I wish to write of They. "They" don't want me to make Kit a martyr. They wish the best for me, I believe, but isn't it funny how everyone's idea of what's best is conceived by their own notions? Maybe people miss the old me and want me back - the role I played anyway. I am different now. I act much the same superficially as old habits die hard. But the amalgamation has configured itself readily into a new shape. One I am not necessarily proud of - how can you be proud of being the result of an ugly choice in which you had no say? but one of necessity.
Though my eyes lay low often with heavy weeping wisps of sadness, they shine fully now. A deep glimmer of which there was only before a small sparkle, the hint of, before. Though the sounds we use to communicate are often ill-chosen in haste (retaliation? irritation? anger?) they can sing with emotion now. Though the hand
that often terrified
of a desire to swing from hitting to caress the sting behind any desire to hurt is absent, and though the hand that loved to caress is now celibate, its touch is gentle, healing.Worlds often collide in my fixation. My mind is a simmering stew of activity, exploring new chasms and worlds and ideas and emotions. I do not deny that I am not always good. I hurt others, intentionally and not sometimes. But I live.
. If we continue to glow - I have a life here to learn and hopefully grow wiser.
I hope they’re not waiting for me forever under the red tree, like the dogs are waiting for j0hn at the
I think it's time for me to stop complaining about my life!
Writing aina izzaty’s story was certainly eye-opening for me. Now, that is a girl who has had a BAD year! And yet, she isn't complaining.just confided. In fact, she's grateful for the good stuff coming her way now.
In honor of aina, I am making a pledge to myself and the world. I am going to concentrating on the things I am grateful for. I'd spend more, but honestly I think here is where I can start! Hopefully I'll work my way up...
I've only been awake for a little while today. But, here's what I'm grateful for this morning.
My awesome friend-ama. He's away so far from me now," There are a lot of reasons to be grateful for ama. Today, I am grateful that I miss him and for the memories we’re having together. Missing him rekindles my spark and reminds me of how much he brings to my daily life and how much important he is to me
When I first started writing stories about ama, I didn't really think about what kind of impact my blog would have on me. Getting to know a bit about all these wonderful people, having them share their stories with me and… it's all pretty amazing..
Then I writing about a tattoo, I get a feedback that support and give their advise to me. Thanked for listening and the advised. I have learned SO much from everyone, I am so grateful for knowing them even this tiny bit.
So, for you all at outside. If you still complain about your life is not perfect or “I should be like them” or “why my life is so hard”..please think it twise.. All we do is shout to ALLAH s.w.t whole day and blame everyone else for our multiple failures?? Why not we search for solution?? If your life like this please don’t worry. Your life would be better soon. What all you need is always pray to ALLAH s.w.t, work hard and after that tawakal to ALLAH s.w.t..
so after everything happen and you never praise ALLAH s.w.t,then izrail come to see you.. you apologies and appeal ALLAH s.w.t for giving a second change to live again and
(two situation-choose 1)
1-you get it... what would U do?? or
2-you are not get it but you can choose 1 place(only 1 ok) to die. which place in this earth you desire ???
(and give me your honest comment )
salam...i agree with u (smbil angkat tangan tanda setuju)...tp akak takde idea lagi nak komen apa pasal post ni...tgh pening....btw...teruskan penulisan ye...akak nak baca lagi..hehehe...jgn marah haaa...
ReplyDeleteakak.. u always like this.. penin penin penin..
ReplyDeletedon't la alwys think bout ur ex l0r.. u hve me rite(shamefaced) =P
haish.....bila masa akak pikir pasal dia...buang masa je..baik pikir pasal pelajaran...ada faedahnya...huhuhu...kanak2 ribena..hadoyai...
ReplyDeletehaihh.. every nite cried..
ReplyDeleteowh u're 'kanak2 rebina' ??
yes i agree.. (i raise ma hand )
so akak is a 'kanak2 rebina' n babydoll also la rite.. so sweet =)
alhamdulillah..
ReplyDeletekusyukur bro sbb kumasih diberi kesempatan gak nak hirup oksigen kat bumi ni.
even diri ni terbanyaklah sangat dosanya..
duduk lak kat melesia yg aman damai tanpa pprangan.
huuu
kasih sygNya amat luas kan?
btw bro,
keep on blogging for the sake of ummah.
moga mmberi maslahah buat masyarakat,agama dan negara!
islah nafsak wa ud'uu ghairak.
istiqomahlah satu2 kebaikan tu wlwpon sikit..
=)
cm best jek pic 1st tuh..=)
ReplyDeletei really thankfull to ALLAH ma lord..
ReplyDeletetgthr we raise ALLAH 's deen yah fasihah..
take care (^^,)
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ReplyDeletehye r0slinda..
ReplyDeleteit was an accident..
but spongebob is saved..
dun wori =)
HArgailah hidup ini..
ReplyDeleteterlalu byk yg Allah beri utk kita syukuri =)
yes u're rite syarifah..
ReplyDeletelets praise be to ALLAH s.w.t
haha really??
ReplyDeletebg0s r cmtuh...seb bek...=)
but i he is not with me..
ReplyDeletehis gurl take him back..
huhu~
hahaha
ReplyDeletewhat we talking ab0ut act??
d car,d guys 0r d sp0ngy??
=p
beli la sndirik sp0ngy tuh..kn sng..=)
Live ur life to the fullest..Obstacles, take it as a challenge not a problem..we might think we have so many problems to face in life..but, we dont realize that there r lots of people out there are facing more and more problems than we do..i just came back from being a volunteer to take care of an Autism kids..well, it is really an eye opener for me to get to know these precious and special kids in person..being surrounded by healthy and smart person always make me forget of the meaning of this life..yeah..competing to get better than the others and be in the highest place among others..than this thing came across..how forgetful i am..a life is not just about ourselves..but it is also about caring the others who in need..
ReplyDeletecriestz>roslinda
ReplyDeletewe r talking bout that pic actlly rite.. so including car guys n spngeb0b l0r.. i want that 1 coz its free =P
criestz>atiqah
yes i agree( n i raise ma hand both =p )
n i miss ma past.. when i was kids..
always hepi ait ... gaa~
0uh d pict...s0,,all in dat pic 0wned by a girl??hahhaahaha superw0man..heee
ReplyDeletekedekuts sungguh...
ask s0me0ne la t0 buy f0r u...lalala
Keep it up. You know your potential. I'll also try my best. Hope you are too.
ReplyDeleteRequote miss GAZA "islah nafsak wa ud'uu ghairak. istiqomahlah satu2 kebaikan tu wlwpon sikit.."
thanks syu'bah..give me de sign if i go to a wrong way..u take care yah..
ReplyDeletecriestz>roslinda
i dun want to ask smbody f0r det..
i just want it fr0m others.. huhu
it's go0d.. intresting =)
de gurl in n0t including in dis story.. she is just a pic =P
l0r...gitu plak..
ReplyDeletesume slh...ish2..
da la,,xnk men dah..=p
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ReplyDeleteok finally..
ReplyDeletethis story is about ma life..
that pic is accessory je lor~
life is not suck..
ReplyDeletesuda smestinye~~!!!
yah ecah..
ReplyDeletecoz we're n0t a bitch ait =)
ermmmm...setiap kehidupan ada turun naiknya...diri kita yang menentukan segalanya...yang penting kita nak atau tak nak untuk berubah kearah kebaikan...akak pun mcm ihsan jg dulu...rasa hidup ni complicated sgt...but after i read all about arwah...i realize that life is not really complicated...diri kita yang buat complicated...cuba kita serahkan segalanya pada ALLAH..insyaAllah ALLAH akan permudahkan segala2nya untuk kita...first thing hubungan kita dengan ALLAH mesti kuat...n Jgn tinggal solat..=)...
ReplyDeleteAkak setuju dengan pendapat ihsan..apa2 yang terjadi sekali pun..kite kn balik pd Tuhan kita yang satu (ALLAH)...dekatkan diri kite dgn ALLAH...selalu mohon keampunan dri NYA...ALLAH Maha Besar...Jgn pula bila masa kite susah je baru nak berdoa, nak ingat ALLAH...masa senang ni juga la kena banyak2 berdoa...bersyukur atas segala yang ALLAH berikan..semoga hidup kita semua diredhai n diberkati ALLAH S.W.T....amin!!!!=)
ReplyDeletethanks kak khadijah..
ReplyDeleteappreciated ur adviced n ur prayer =)
thanks alot...~